This is the last Sunday Ramblings for this year. And my my!!! Looking back at the kind of year it has been, I can only thank God for the end of the year. It has not been anywhere near easy. I've had heartbreaks, betrayals, ended relationships and friendships, seen the departure of friends, and more family drama than I could ever imagine existed. I've had my ups and downs with career, life, social life, decisions... It's been stressing.
But, allow me to employ the cliché. All roses do have thorns. But must we focus on the thorns? Granted, they making the enjoyment of the rose a bit of a precarious adventure, but what is life without a bit of adventure? Yes, I spilled some milk. Yes, I lost some. Yes, I got pricked by many a thorn. But whether I admit it or not, this year has been one hell of a rose garden!!!
If you've read this blog for a while, you know much of my story. You know what my desires, my prayers and hopes have been. You know the things I've been praying for, struggling with, and trying to get. Take for instance the conflicts I used to have with my folks in 2010... Those have been replaced by a close-knit relationship. Or my worries about employment and income? Where did those go? And finding my own place to stay? Oh yes. I've had two heartbreaks this year. Or was it three? Wait, they were more than three. But this heart of mine has been more than blessed by the friends and family I've been surrounded by.
I worry about my closet, we all know that. But that has over this year evolved too. The glass has darkened. It's almost opaque, but the people in this ever expanding closet with me... Those have been a real blessing. In light of recent happenings (outing homosexuals seems to be the newest fad for Ugandans), I have had to be more careful. And those around me that know, are doing more than I am to protect me.
And that is not all. There is a lot more that I have to be thankful for. Particularly the people in my life. And tonight, I'd like to mention just three.
Optimist: I don't even know where to start from. If I had words, I'd fashion them to express how grateful I am for you. I know I have hated you, loathed you, been mad at you, and had even vowed to shut you out of my life till you were just someone I used to know. But you refused for that to happen. You insisted, persisted, and made sure this friendship was salvaged. I have no idea where I would have been without you. All I can say is, thank you, and good luck shutting me up.
Unnamed, I'm finger-tied. Even finding a name to introduce you by on this blog is proving a problem. I love you. That random meeting remains fresh in my mind, not because of the circumstances, but because it brought you into my life. I doubt anyone gets me the way you get me, and I don't know what I did before you became a factor in my life. It's weird how you're not my boyfriend, and yet you fill such a void in my life, I don't know if I'll need to get one. You have changed my life, you. Thank you, and so much more.
Mother dearest... you don't read this blog, but I love you. Not just because you're 'softening', but for being the best mother anyone could ever ask for. Many people have Angels in their lives. Most of us have rocks we stand upon. You have been both my Angel and my Rock throughout this year, even when, undoubtedly, it was the hardest for you and I. I've learnt more from you than I could ever learn anywhere else, and the way you support me... I just love you mum! You shock me sometimes, and I can say with confidence, you are one of my best friends. Thank you.
Thorns, Roses, and Bliss. I've had pain, I've had fun, and I've had blessings. 2012 is a year I'm glad is done, but it is a year I'm glad I did. Thank you for reading this far, and more importantly, thank you for staying in this ever expanding closet with me.
To a greater 2013!!!